It's been a long Mother's Day. I put over 80 miles on my car picking up my mother and going to my wife's sister's new home and back again. It was a nice time but I was really saddened to see how much my brother-in-law had gone down. He's lost at least 30 pounds and is beginning to look like another person. He seemed to be having a good day today and was up and about and talkative. God bless him, he has a rare form of stomach cancer and has been given only a few months to live. His name is Larry Averitt and when you pray, pray for him. He's a wonderful person. I've known him for nearly 30 years and I've never seen him mad, angry or upset. No one could ask for a better friend then Larry. I'm glad I had some time to spend with him today.
Of course, there's nothing on TV tonight, no movies worth watching or anything interesting. I'm bored and a bit tired. I bought a book at Wal-Mart on the discount table and I've started reading it. It's a Christian book but not the usual preachy type. The writer is a thinker and has really put some thought and time into the subject. He says the empty feeling we all get sometimes is home sickness. Not for this world but for something that God put in all of us. It's the longing for home. Not an earthly home but for heaven. Since we are body, soul and spirit, it's in our heart (spirit) and was placed there by our Father, God, and it's a longing for our real home. Our final destination. It's a longing for something more then the riches of earth offer. I think he's right. The name of the book is UnSeen Things by Mark Buchanan.
Have you ever stood alone on the side of the road watching the sun go down. That big red ball of fire slowly sinking out of site only leaving an afterglow of beautiful golden rays that soon disappear into darkness. That feeling of loneliness, emptiness, abandonment or whatever you choose to call it is telling us it's time to go home. Kind of the way I feel right now. I think it's a time to reflect, to pray, to seek God, to draw near Him. It's as though He's pulling us to Him, placing His arms of mercy around us, telling us that He's there.
I've only read the first 3 chapters but those are my thoughts about what Buchanan is trying to say.
Here's a quote from the book,
"It is eternity in my heart, It is a taste, however elusive, of some Other Thing, some Unseen Thing. It is a reminder that the world is not enough, and that every bone and cell in me knows that. It is a desire for something that earth can make me thirst for, but never quench"
The quote is from a memory of his youth of his parents laughing. They have long since passed into eternity. It's the feeling that best describes a desire to go back to that time and place, but of course, it's not possible. It's the longing he feels for that time. A haunting memory.
Although we haven't seen God, we know He's there and we long to see Him. It's as though we have a memory of Him. If we are made in His image, then we must have a longing to know our Creator and Father. It's a desire to be with Him in His house. It's that drawing in our hearts that let's us know He's there and is also longing to be with us.
I think you know what I'm saying. The more you read the Bible and get understanding, the closer you get to God. The closer you get, you begin to understand and hear His voice. Listen, it's not in the wind or the fire or storm. It's in your heart, you spirit. The Bible calls the heart the "candle of the Lord", meaning where we get our understanding. It lights the path of our life here on earth. It's the only place where you'll hear that familiar voice calling us home.
